My baby

Today is Adam's first day in daycare (it's a little private daycare with one daycare-mom and 2 other children). I cannot tell you how weird it feels to leave my little baby in the care of someone else. We rarely have him babysat by others( and almost onlyfamily) and then only for few hours at the time. But luckily we have found a really sweet daycare-mom and we fully trust her to take good care of him.
We have tried to have a smooth introduction with a couple of visits with both me and Michael, and a couple of times with me alone.
But today is his first "real day" there. I stayed with him for the first hour or so, then I helped put him down for his nap, and later his daycare-mom will call me when it's time for the kids' afternoon nap and I'll come pick him up, so his first day won't be too long.

I feel very torn, and I keep having a feeling that I should be a stay-at-home mom, but I'm not quite sure if it's just my own insecurity about not being able to find a job, or if it really would be the best thing for Adam (and me).
I don't really know if I'm cut out for being a homemaker - I'll tell you, sometimes I'm definitely not! I have my days where I want to pull my hair out and I almost scream for a grocery shopping trip ALONE when Michael comes home.
We have decided that for now, Adam will be in daycare and I'll continue my job hunt, and maybe when times are better (we have to be sure that Michael has a secure job) well talk it over once more.

If you miss Adam a bit like I do - then watch this video of him making his kissing mouth (with sound)

BTW - guess who took 3 steps by himself while we were in Norway during the weekend? (.. and try to guess who sobbed afterwards - my little baby is a big boy now)